Often I think about fear I think about how I feel when I know I need to do something but I am not sure if it is something I want to do. The possible results keep me from moving…will I fail, will it be accepted, will I be able to do all that I want to accomplish?! OMG! Just the many thoughts running though my head keep me in a state of paralysis. I am sure we have all been there. Yes, it is hard to make the first move, yet it feels so good one you finally do.
When I think about fear, I think about how I feel when I know I need to do something, but I am not sure if it is something I can accomplish. The possible results keep me from moving…will I fail, will it be accepted, will I be able to do all that I want to accomplish the goal?! OMG! Just the many thoughts running though my head keep me in a state of paralysis. I am sure we have all been there, I am learning that I have to push past the fear to get started. Yes, it is hard to make the first move, yet it feels so good once I finally do.
When I had my first child, I was sure that I wanted to be a mom. No one could tell me that I wouldn’t be a good one. Although I was young, 17 to be exact, I ran head first into that situation much like David did when he fought Goliath. I had faith in my abilities, I knew that God had blessed me with a child regardless of the situation, and I had support from my family. That was enough to keep me from running away from this new adventure called Motherhood. Did I always get it right…nope! Did I know what to expect…nope! Did I enjoy every moment…YES! And that is what mattered enjoying the moment through the good times and the bad times I gave it my all.
So how is it that I am willing to jump into that adventure headfirst, but many others I am not able to get past the thought. I have concluded that I do not have as much faith in my abilities as I did when that situation occurred. For instance, I am currently writing this blog based on my prayers about ministry. Not quite sure what gifts and/or talents to use to share all that God has done in my life. He has blessed my life in so many ways that I feel like I will overflow if I don’t share it. The idea of a blog kept coming to me when I spoke to those closest to me. One of my closest friends had started a blog about wine, one of my spiritual sisters also mentioned she had started a blog in the past which she loved, and the final confirmation came from a woman who didn’t know me, but in our conversation she spoke of just writing about my experiences which may help others. Yup, that was all the confirmation I needed!
Well maybe not all…I still had to get over the fear that was creeping up as I started the process of creating and learning how blogs worked. I began to focus on the reasons I should let this idea die, but God kept talking to me. The scripture that kept ringing in my ear was: II Chronicles 32:7, Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid nor dismayed before the king of Assyria, nor before all the multitude that is with him; for there are more with us than with him. God reminded me that He is with me in this new adventure. There will be people who don’t get it, there will be those who think it is a waste of time, even those close to me won’t understand… but there are more who need to know it is possible to be in relationship with a God who loves them. How can say no to that?!
I say all of this to say welcome to the birth of my new baby! One created by God, based on His design, and for His purpose. Much like raising my natural children, I know there will be times when I don’t get it right. Yet my faith is not in me this time. It is in the God who has called me to fear-less as I walk in the destiny He has prepared just for me. He reminds us that He will be right there with us if we remember to ask Him for direction. So go out there, fear-less and watch Him blow your mind!